Two dead babies

The recent post of Papa Soltie, prompted me to find an interpretation of my dream just before I woke up this morning:

"I was in my home province when I saw a dead baby (no, not a fetus anymore) on the pile of garbage on the street.  We were sort of investigating who dumped the baby.  One witness told me a woman who seemed forlorn has the baby.  And upon inspecting, we discovered there's another dying baby but it was too late to resuscitate."

It was gross!

Anyway, I tried to look for the dream interpretation in the net and found one.  So I immediately looked for "death" and "baby"


Dead means:

"To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss."

Dying:

"To see someone dying in your dream, signifies that your feelings for that person are dead or that a significant change/loss is occurring in your relationship with that person. Alternatively, you may want to repress that aspect of yourself that is represented by the dying person."

Baby connotes:

"...innocence, warmth and new beginnings.  Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. If you find a baby in your dream, then it suggests that you have acknowledged your hidden potential."

And the dream dictionary suggests:
To see a dead baby in your dream, symbolizes the ending of something that was once a part of you.


In summary, these might be the meaning of my dream:

1. Possible loss of some opportunities and perhaps no new beginnings or have I stopped acknowledging and realizing my hidden potentials? (Heaven forbid!--no not that one please...);
2. Forewarning about my ex-girlfriend who has become sweetie-sweetie again (like we were texting last Saturday and told me she misses me that she was inviting for a coffee...yeah, it was kilig, but then...I have to pinch myself to go back to reality! Gosh!  How I miss her too. Her sweet scent, beautiful eyes, and her sweetness!  After so many years, we were able to meet again--through Friendster, and met one time--and how I almost fell off my seat when I saw she was still that pretty girl I knew back in college. And did I say how I long for her hugs and kisses?).
3. Ending my gay life, for good or perhaps, trying to get out of it or both.

If I were to choose, I would rather have No. 2 and 3 (dead baby) to come out true of this dream, but not No. 1 (dying baby).  I need those opportunities and new beginnings!

Whatever it is (because only God knows!), am I in for ending or terminating some old parts of me or am I in for something new?

So help me, God.