I don't like this feeling
Here I go again, mustering all the strength and courage to suppress this feeling. I don't want this kind of excitement after I chatted with you in the net, and after we exchanged text messages. I just do not want to anticipate. I just do not want to jump into conclusions like there is "something" about it.
But at the same time, there is a part of me that says, "Let go!"...because I get tickled here and there? It gives me those goosebumps again. It makes my heart beat fast again after hibernation for years. No, it cannot be. I am just misinterpreting words. I am just entertaining thoughts that I want to think about. I am interpreting words like they were terms of endearment. I am nurturing false expectations...again.
I do not want to get hurt again.
Should I stop? Should I ever entertain it again? Should I just let go?